A neighbor couple came over for dinner on Thursday, which turned out to be the last friend-dinner we’ll be having for a while, as we are now all, suddenly, social distancing (and I hope you are too).
Julia and I also contingency-planned over the weekend: What to do when she comes home from the hospital (shoes off at the door, scrubs immediately in the basement washing machine, then upstairs for a shower); what to do should one of us get sick (sleep in separate rooms, split the bathrooms, use gloves and respirators left over from when we painted the house).
Pile on everything I’ve been reading in the news, and I’ve started waking up in the middle of the night again, unable to fall back asleep, anxious about the future.
But I can feel the ground shifting, in other ways, too. This after I stopped looking at my screens for a moment and took Matisse out for a long walk, to the park near the end of our boulevard. It was the most pleasant almost-spring day yet this year. We waved to neighbors (or I waved and Matisse tried to pull in the opposite direction) and kept our appropriate 6-foot-minimum berth. Circling back, I realized I’d been drowning so much in gloomy urgency that I was overlooking all the good that is happening – and there is a tremendous amount of good happening.
Then I had a wacky idea: I could write a newsletter about that good. It could be a kind of counter-programing, for others, but mostly for myself – to remind myself of that good. To show my gratitude for it, like journaling in the open. The newsletter could live separately from this one, and – here’s maybe the wacky part – it could be daily.